For the poor in spirit: READ THIS

Hello I'm RaChelle or Soul. Everyone knows me (exept datlolguy) as the guy who has a very stressful life. Some decisions are very hard to make. But when there is something very important you want to say or do but are too shy to do it follow the steps below:

 

1. Think of why you are too shy to do or say it: 

Uually someone has a nerve or an impulse that prevent them from doing something important. Decide what it is and get rid of it. If it is a statement continue on, but if it is an action stop here.

 

2. Get the person the action or phrase must done or said to an implication of what you need to say: To the readers out there who have a crush and are not sure what to do abotu it but total access to the person you like, give them a short sentence like "you're really fun" or "I think you're cool". If you get an awkward response, then continue on to step three. If you get a response similar to "I feel the same way about you" or "I think tht about you", mission accomplished. Skip step three.

 

3. If the previous steps don't work, say your feared expression or action in front of EVERYBODY: For those of you who are "popular" at school, this isn't school. Everyone lies a romantic couple on haiku. Plus if you show to the world your crush on someone or the important thing you needed to say, they may agree with you or even say things "adorable c;". Then your crush will most likely question you on it.

 

4. Show your love: Even if your crush doesn't love you, give them hugs and complement them. They may feel different after a while. -wink- c;

 

These were the steps of how to deal with an awkward situation. Hope it helped.

 

~RaChelle

My Feelings

I feel alone sometimes... I'm alone 90% of the day... But the other 10% I'm with a haikuer or a little girl who likes to knock on my door and keep me company. This girl is less-fortunate than me. She was born was a lot of mental illnesses and a lot of birth defects but she is the nicest, cutest girl I've ever known. (besides Gluvr of course ;o) On those cold nights I'm all alone because I'm living in a damn wellness center and no one's on haiku she comes and hugs me and hold heer close... She never complains, never cries, and is never negative and yet she could die at ny moment... It breaks my heart to know that someone so sweet could have such a hard life...

 

She originally lived at a foster home due to the fact that her parents neglected her... She still tells me I'm beautiful. She goes into the surgery room every night and the doctors can't help her... She comes to me and hugs me and I allow her to d whatever she wants with my stuff. She deserves a lot more than she's received and it breaks my heart... I love this little girl... She's like a daughter to me... She's six and she doesn't a different life image than the miserable one she was dealt...

 

I don't know how to help her get better but I know exactly how to keep her happy... I'm awaiting her death and it's to much to bear... Because I love her...

 

I cry every night knowing she's not okay... I visit her to see if she if and occasionally I'll come in and she'd been having a seizure... I want her to live a life longer than mine but that seems impossible...

 

Please understand and help me to help her... ; _ ;

2/1 An Ode to February

February, oh sweet scent of winter

When the birds return but the snow fluster

But my skin is cold and my heart is warm

My chest may burn but I'm not alarm

The beautiful sight of smooth crystal snow

The feelinf of which you have no place to go.

Oh February, you are finally here

The one single month that I have to hold dear

 

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Hello! I'm a very sweet girl named RaChelle. I'm african american and am very experienced with unfortunate life experiences. 

 

I was born with a terrible heart condition which is basically the type 1 diabetes of the heart.

 

 

In 2003 my parents divorced, and my mom took my siblings leaving em with my father.

 

My father took his frustrations of his job, his emotions, and society on me, abusively. He would abuse me physially, sexually, and mentally... He destroyed my immune system and in 2008 I was diagnosed with cardiovascular disease.

 

I went thru many therapies and treatments, and it never went away until I caught a bacterium containing breast cancerous germ while out in the freezing temperatures one day when my father locked me out of the house on a freezing winter night. I slept outside that night, caught pneumonia, which led the bacterium into my breast while my immune system was down.

 

Whent the cardiovascular disease was finally broken, just three months later, (November 2011) I was diagnosed with breast cancer. In January 2013 I recovered partially, but the surgeons were not able to stop the bacterium that had settled in my lower intestines, from which normal tumors are produced.

 

The disease got suddenly worse in October 2013, causing me to lose non-oxygenated (if that is a word, meaning that the blood I relinquished did not contain oxygen) blood by hurling and coughing it up consistantly.

 

I became one with Sam id:twopercentsoap in January 2014, and we are still together here three weeks later.

 

 

He is the only one that has seen a true picture of me because I cannot, by law, display a picture publicly.

 

 

I also have a disgustingly off timed "monthly" calendar that causes me to bleed anally more often than other females...

 

 

But I love helping others, so feel free to respond to me via haiku or http//:h.hatena.com/Soulchu98 with your problems, but I will not respond to haiku, only by Hatena blog.

 

Love you guys!! <3

 

~RaChelle*